• Some days even finding the strength to wake up and be functional is difficult, she says
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Nelius Mukami, the wife of former nominated Senator Isaac Mwaura, says depression is the most expensive thing she owns.
In a candid post on social media, Mukami said living with depression, anxiety and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) is one of the hardest things she has had to do in life.
"It has taken a lot from me and it continues taking. It takes so much effort just to avoid it and it still finds me even in my happiest of days and in my solitude."
Mukami said some days even finding the strength to wake up in the morning and be functional is difficult.
"Nobody understands that it takes everything in me just to drag myself out of bed," she said.
"Depression continues to rob me of experiences, memories and people. I find myself feeling broken and unworthy.
"I have lost so many parts of myself, sometimes I stare in the mirror and I cannot recognise who I am anymore."
In a past interview with Word Is, Mukami said she has had it rough since losing two-thirds of her triplets.
"I have been fighting depression since 2018 in April, immediately after I left the hospital," she said.
"My mental health journey has been a huge rollercoaster and very hard to explain because not many will understand.
"People think it's a state of mind that you can just shake off with enough motivation but it is not... At least not for me. "
She said she is grateful for every day that she lives.
"I know deep down that I am not broken and I am worthy. I know there is still so much for me to conquer.
"I have spent so much time grieving the person I was and forgotten to be grateful for the woman am becoming. I am a work in progress."